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Friday, 16 October 2009

Tuesday, 13 October 2009

  • I am a grumpy goat!

    Its bottling up to be like a pressure cooker... all my frustrations which I can't get off my chest. I realised I have lost all my good friends. In fact, I guess in my entire life I never have bestest of friends so whenever I needed a heart to heart girlie talk, the girlies aren't there. I just feel so being used by people around me. Is it my fate - like what the fortune teller once told me, I will have many friends but none are best. Is this prophecy true?

    I am feeling under the weather, and perhaps all the frustrations I face in my work life. Even jumping from company to company, I wonder why I cant find my cup of tea. While people around me just fit in and they have everything going so smoothy for them. I start to wonder if I had made a right choice to be in this firm. Small it may seems, but the people are hard to decipher in terms of behaviour. I ponder everyday on my jobscope, what exactly is it? I somehow cannot take a job without knowing what I ought to do. I cannot sit down waiting for things to be served as and when they like. I must be able to sit in and start my day at my fingertips. I am NOT at the mercy of anyone and WILL NOT be. Having said all these, I still miss my days in the frontline. At least I know what I have to do day to day and the challenges are a plenty. I look at the way the people move around in a sluggish manner...and the efficiency level of this crowd with gossipers and bootlickers a plenty , just puts me off totally.

    I think its time to start again and I shall let the Lord dictate my route. My heart will look, His hand will guide.

Tuesday, 06 October 2009

  • Birthday post

    Never put your hopes too high * I conclude*   Happy birthday to me! Is it true that as a relationship gets longer the effort to sustain this relationship declines? I felt so very much so, or issit someone set the benchmark too high initially . But then again, every girl deserves at least some flowers every year, regardless if its 1stalk or not ! I just hate it that he took such a laid back attitude towards me now. I had to plan my own dinner.. drive myself to the restaurant and hear him whine along the way without even wishing me sweetly. Yes, you may have a headache but you could at least take a panadol first and try to make the nite better rite? That is what I will do if I were you! I will always try to make sure I am feeling good especially on a special occasion. You should be giving me the deserving attention instead of stealing it from me. I felt sooo taken for granted. I am suppose to feel happy but I feel so heartbroken instead.   I can’t hide that feeling that my heart isn’t feeling right about this.   Whatever! I took some pictures but I am too upset to upload it now. Perhaps shall leave it till I feel HAPPY to do it. It will at least put a more positive looking picture.

Monday, 28 September 2009

  • Turning away from opportunity

    I am writing this with a mixed feelings... I've just turned down the offer at MBS. I am feeling sad but yet feel that it is better to do so as I really have no idea where that position leads me to. With so much advice from people around me, I felt its better to let go for a better tomorrow. Its a dream to be at MBS , pioneering the casino industry in Singapore but somehow that position doesn't shed any light on how the advancement will be and the perks and pay isn't as attractive. Money is the issue now, as I am tied up and need $$ to tide through at least this one year.

    My heart feels a great pity to let this opportunity go away... but I will feel its for the better. I am sure God already has His plan on his cards for me. I shall let His mighty hand lead me.

Tuesday, 22 September 2009

  • My Singapore wonder

    Sometimes I really wonder do people in Australia behave the same way as those over here? Are they less self centered, less petty,less fussy and more humane? I've never really worked closely with an Australian even during my uni days with much regret. I wished I did so I could understand their culture much more. But having studied there, I do love their friendly natured environment.

    Somehow it puts me to question if a money driven society actually moulds the human character? This is what I see happening here now. Sad to say, it moulds the very sorry selfish side of human nature here. People think about money, about pride and its all about themselves.

    Each morning, my driving experience on the road just adds on to my thoughts about these people here. in 5 years time, will everyone here be lacking humanity? I won't want to live in such society, I fear such situation and I am thinking hard how to build my foundation to get my out of here.

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  • The search for happiness is one of the chief sources of unhappiness. The secret (or not so much a secret) to happiness is to be thankful for life as it is and learning what God wants of us in the circumstances we are in.